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ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Attitude is Everything
Fri, 07/13/2012 - 11:13am

I was just slightly winded, short of breath, even though I hadn't walked far. I had been fit and healthy my entire life so whatever was wrong couldn't be serious, I thought. I was diagnosed with heart failure in October 2009. My decline was rapid and by April 2010 I was constantly in and out of the hospital. My body's functions began shutting down as they were denied proper blood supply. Finally, after nearly dying in an emergency room, I was transferred (thankfully) to Sharp Memorial Hospital in San Diego where I had the best team possible caring for me. Within a week, I was in surgery having my Thoratec Heartmate II LVAD implanted. After the implant and as I began to feel better, I decided to take the problem as my own and find a solution as no cause had ever been given to me, save for a good guess that it was from a virus. I read obsessively and searched for a doctor to work with me, which I finally found. Once on a three pronged program, my heart began to heal. Within four months, my ejection fraction rose from a pre-surgery 18 to 35 in October 2010. My cardiologist told me that if the trend continued they would be able to remove the LVAD in the future. I stayed my course and in June 2011, my ejection fraction had risen to over 50 and surgery was scheuled. My LVAD was finally removed in September 2011. I am back to life with my own heart, able to shower, bathe and swim. I have written a book about my experience, my path to wellness and the lessons I learned from this, at times, nightmarish experience. I speak to groups about heart disease, LVADs and taking responsibility for your own health issues. I could have rolled over and felt sorry for myself, something that would have been quite easy to do, but instead I decided to take control and move forward. I hope you all do the same.

feltingfool's picture feltingfool
Fri, 07/13/2012 - 11:25am


Beth's picture Beth
Thu, 07/19/2012 - 8:48pm

That is so inspiring. I am 51 yr old single mom with no known cardiac issues until a massive MI June 17th which ended up with heart failure and a LVAD insertion June 21st. I am so depressed . I had a EF of 10 prior to my Ivad and when I left the hosp it was up to 25 I feel I have hope but don't know what do. Any direction reading, excerises you can suggest or direct me to I would be ever grateful . Thank you.
Beth Boshart
105 wells Drive
Utica, new York 13502

M4V3R1CK41_3's picture M4V3R1CK41_3
Sat, 08/04/2012 - 1:32am

Thomas, your story is inspiring. you mentioned that you have done some research in regards to the doctor that worked with you. Could you please provide more information about the doctor? I would greatly appreciate it.
Also, I am very interested in learning more about your experience. Is there anyway that you could provide your e-mail address?

Kimi's picture Kimi
Wed, 08/08/2012 - 3:25pm

Hi Beth-
Try being only 24yrs old with no known cardiac issues and suddenly been rushed into surgery for a 4x bypass! With no explanation as to how this happened, just that my artery tore from giving birth and it happens so rare it's like playing the lottery. My EF is also now at about 10-15% even after the LVAD. I was on a steady routine of exercing recently and kinda feel down when I go to my routine appts and hear the same thing "nothing's changed".
Don't get me wrong I am forever grateful for my LVAD because I am still living and able to get back to a pretty much normal life but I also what like to know what the author of this post did to reverse his heart failure.

Brimommy's picture Brimommy
Hi . I am 29 an just have
Mon, 01/01/2018 - 8:33am (Reply to #5)

Hi . I am 29 an just have some questions about your lvad experience. I have a EF of 15% and the most I have ever experience is swelling . My last hospital visit I was told I couldn't take any of my meds an was put on milrinone. Did you ever have to be on that medication? They are saying I should consider getting the lvad.

Jim_Sacconi's picture Jim_Sacconi
Mon, 01/08/2018 - 9:56am (Reply to #6)

When my LVAD was placed my EF was 5-10% after getting used to it I loved it........but in Nov of 2015 I got a blood clot and that moved me up to Status 1A for one week and on 12.17.15 I received my NEW Heart..... which was also my 33rd wedding anniversary.... Be strong..... and feel free to e-mail ANYTIME....♥

ktaylor10003's picture ktaylor10003
Transplant vs LVAD
Mon, 01/15/2018 - 1:25pm (Reply to #7)

I am curious how you are doing since your heart transplant. My 16 year old son has had his lvad for 2 months and we are doing good so far. It seems like the doctors are pushing for transplant and getting on the list as soon as possible. I am very nervous about transplant and my son does not want a transplant. Would like to hear some personal thoughts about transplant vs living with lvad

cjruth58's picture cjruth58
Transplant vs LVAD
Tue, 01/23/2018 - 1:27pm (Reply to #8)

I would be happy to share my thoughts on transplant vs lvad, although bear in mind that I am much older then your son. I received my 1st lvad in February of 2010, just before my 50th birthday, due to heart failure due to a virus. As can be imagined, the surgery and recovery were painful and hard. It was a good 6 months before I realized that I was finally normal again. My first instinct was not to have any more surgery ever again, but went ahead with the transplant requirements since it did seem they were pushing to that end. I finally decided that I did not want a transplant, mostly because I've had a great life, great family, children and grandchildren. Save them for the young. Then I did some soul searching and realized that I had a gut instinct that I would not make it through the first year post transplant. I understand this is the hardest time, and if a patient can get through the first year, they are good. I also have dogs, live in the woods, love to garden; and just didn't want to have to stop any of that. I also realized that all my heart caths were to prove I didn't have another disease, and could stay on the transplant list. I decided that transplant was not for me. The lvad has worked really well with my body, and going without baths and swimming was ok with me. I got flat out lazy, and started cleaning my dressing every other day, and over the years, it got even longer at times. I got an infection and was hospitalized in 2014, in which I had no pain and no symptoms. I was told that once an lvad patient gets an infection, they will always have an infection. I heard it, but didn't get it until this past April when I had an infection that included pain, fever and absolutely no energy or appetite. It was the exact same infection I had in 2014, it just stayed dormant, attached to the nonorganic material of my lvad, and resurfaced with a vengeance in 2017. Their best iv drugs barely touched my infection, but helped enough so they could perform surgery. Due to scar tissue, I had no idea of what surgery I would have. I had 3 options, 2 that I pray your son never has to face. 1) be discharged to hospice, and I know I wouldn't have lasted long. 2) surgery was only able to remove part of the lvad, causing me to be on antibiotics for the rest of my life, and given a 2 year life span. 3) surgeon was able to remove and replace entire system. I was blessed and received the 3rd option, and am very grateful. With my age, and surgeries, I can have no more, so this is my absolute last chance, and probably more then I deserve. Infection should scare you at least as much as transplant. I can't tell you the lesser of the 2 evils, but at his young age, I would push for the transplant. The surgery stinks, but can obviously be overcome. Regardless of your choice, please, please; never let down your guard for infection, or for daily cleaning of his dressing. I cannot express my feelings at the possibility of hospice. I chose to believe the doctors push transplant because it offers the longest life possible for the patient. I sure wish your whole family the best.

Fcashdan's picture Fcashdan
I was on debutimine drip for
Mon, 01/08/2018 - 10:16am (Reply to #9)

I was on debutimine drip for 6 months and it did not work. These meds are very dangerous. Do your research. I can tell you for debutimine that life expectancy of a year was very small. I had teh LVAD put in in 2014. I'm going on 4 years as I am bridge to transplant. By the way I was 48 when the heart attack just about killed the left side of my heart. My EF was 13 when I had the LVAD installed

Bob_Butler's picture Bob_Butler
Mon, 01/08/2018 - 11:56am (Reply to #10)

Hello - I was put on Milrinone for a week in hospital back in 2013. My EF was 10% and like you I was walking around, albeit slowly with lots of edema and shortness of breath. Milrinone was not effective for my heart failure and I received the LVAD in April, 2013. At first it was not adjusted correctly and I had lots of fluid on my lungs, which eventually was removed through a procedure. After adjustment and removing the fluid I began to improve. Upon continuing cardiac rehab at home my INR became too low and I suffered a clot (Thrombosis) in my HeartMate II LVAD that sent me back to hospital for 2.5 months. Drugs cleared the clot after a few days, but this was a serious event. I manage my own blood thinner (Warfarin) now and test at home with the Alere monitoring program which eliminated the trips to the anticoagulation clinic for testing. I returned to work in August, 2013. Now, 4.5 years later I remain on the transplant list, with the hopes of a transplant happening within another year, but with blood type O and my ability to function so well, it could be longer. You don't say you are on the transplant list, and I'm no doctor, but I would listen to your cardiologists as they know your situation best. I sometimes wonder if I had remained in hospital as Type 1A vice my 1B status with the LVAD if a transplant would have come sooner -but the gamble is on your life. Good luck to you, and as said by others reach out anytime.

Rclemans's picture Rclemans
Mon, 01/08/2018 - 3:30pm (Reply to #11)

I was put on Milirone last year at this time after almost had all my organs shut down I was one sick girl. Milirone only worked for 1 month my ef was 12% and just kept dropping so I had open heart surgery 3/31/17 and decided to put in the LVAD till transplant and it’s changed my life a lot better more energy but now I’m waiting for transplant

Brimommy's picture Brimommy
Hi . I am 29 an just have
Mon, 01/01/2018 - 8:33am (Reply to #12)

Hi . I am 29 an just have some questions about your lvad experience. I have a EF of 15% and the most I have ever experience is swelling . My last hospital visit I was told I couldn't take any of my meds an was put on milrinone. Did you ever have to be on that medication? They are saying I should consider getting the lvad.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Mon, 01/08/2018 - 10:07am (Reply to #13)

Yes, I have been on milrinone before.
I can't really tell you what you should do. Your EF is quite low and I'm sure you are not feeling well. I will tell you that the LVAD made me feel 1000% better and I was able to lead a mostly normal life with it.
It does give you a good quality of life while considering other options. Once implanted, you can consider the transplant option, simply living with the LVAD, or, like me, seek alternative answers to healing your heart.

I wish you all the best. God Bless.


Brimommy's picture Brimommy
Hi . I am 29 an just have
Mon, 01/01/2018 - 8:33am (Reply to #14)

Hi . I am 29 an just have some questions about your lvad experience. I have a EF of 15% and the most I have ever experience is swelling . My last hospital visit I was told I couldn't take any of my meds an was put on milrinone. Did you ever have to be on that medication? They are saying I should consider getting the lvad.

Brimommy's picture Brimommy
Hi . I am 29 an just have
Mon, 01/01/2018 - 8:33am (Reply to #15)

Hi . I am 29 an just have some questions about your lvad experience. I have a EF of 15% and the most I have ever experience is swelling . My last hospital visit I was told I couldn't take any of my meds an was put on milrinone. Did you ever have to be on that medication? They are saying I should consider getting the lvad.

Kimi's picture Kimi
Wed, 08/08/2012 - 3:27pm

oh by the way the 4x bypass was roughly 13yrs ago- I was LVAD implanted 5/2010. I just turned 38 today!! =)

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Wed, 08/08/2012 - 5:21pm

Because of inquiries, my book is called, "One Percent: My Journey Overcoming Heart Disease" by Thomas Martin. If you have sincere questions, you may contact me at Please reference MyLVAD in the subject line.
Thank you.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Fri, 08/10/2012 - 9:20am

?More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God?s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us.? Romans 5:3-5
?Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things.? ? The Shawshank Redemption
Hope empowers you - victimhood degrades you. It's your choice.

miracle4me's picture miracle4me
Fri, 08/10/2012 - 9:05pm

I was in a similar situation as you. After my fourth child I had three of my main arteries disect and I was rushed into a triple bypass. I then had an external pump and after ten days with no improvement I had my LVAD implanted. I was 34 yrs. old and I had a two week old baby. I was also told it was very rare to have no heart problems and have the disection after multiple births. I could've gotten mad about the situation but I feel that everything happens for a reason. God got me through this situation since I was told by the doctor I should've died. Now I'm alive with my LVAD and I'm able to be with my loving husband and four kids. I enjoy giving hope to other patients who are getting LVAD's. God has given me so much joy through this situation. We are still praying that my heart will heal and I'm trusting Him since He know's what's best. I hope everyone with LVAD's can find at least one positive. My positive is that I'm alive and can enjoy life with my family.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Thu, 09/27/2012 - 8:25am

Wow - had quite an interesting meeting with a new cardiologist, now that I live in Texas and no longer in California. I feel sorry for all of you out there that may have doctors like this one I saw. Unbelievably rude and pessimistic. In spite of all that has happened to me his narrative could be condensed into the following: "Regardless of what has happened, you'll die of heart failure anyway." and "I am god - you are not" I won't be seeing him again, but that means I have to start over here and find someone else. I need to think of a way of pre-interviewing them before even setting an appointment. It is amazing the arrogance that infects these people when they put on a white coat.

willhyland's picture willhyland
Now in Texas
Mon, 12/04/2017 - 11:28am (Reply to #21)

Thomas, I don't know who this doctor was, but depending where you are in Texas, there are great teams in Dallas and of course the De Bakey team here in Houston at the Methodist hospital. If you need particular names email me at

acura's picture acura
Sat, 10/20/2012 - 8:39pm

Does anyone have any suggestions on clothing for the Lvad batteries other then fishing vest or bosco vest. My husband wears jeans most of the time. So, the bosco is a little formal.Any hints or tricks ?

willhyland's picture willhyland
Lvad clothing
Mon, 12/04/2017 - 12:02pm (Reply to #23)

I have spent a little time on this as I needed to be somewhat free to move and swing my arms. here are a few suggestion. I metal detect, fish and have played golf.
1. Undertech/unerarmor has a concealment vest for pistols. Get the one for two pockets at the arm pit. This garment along with the belt mounted case for the monitor allows for a normal shirt to be worn over the batteries and looks completely normal.
2. Betabands make a product call "under the jack pack" that is a backpack about 3/4" thick. It was designed to carrying a laptop (get the larger version) under your jacket. It fits very snug to your back and can act as a back warmer as the monitor heats up. I cut one thread that create a pencil holder area and it made it large enough for the second battery. The control just lays in the bottom. You might want to also protect where your driveline comes out because there are zipper teeth there. I had a tailor cover that with heavy material. Your arms are now completely free to swing about. The one problem with this is the shoulder strap keeps falling off. I guess I can correct this with more adjustment.
3. My favorite are the ammo pouches I had enlarger to fit the battery. I now wear a separate 2" leather belt that has the original monitor case and two ammo pouches on it.
the reason it is separate from the belt holding my pants up is that there are no loops to keep me from sliding the batteries to what ever position I want at the moment. If I am sitting I want the batteries to my sides, if I am swinging I want them all the way behind me, if am laying down I want them out from under me. So this equipment was done for me by a boot maker which isn't hard to find in Texas.
4. I have been watching an ad on TV for a product called "the Scotty vest" and it looks like it could be used as a way to carry all of our stuff.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Sun, 10/21/2012 - 6:51am

Hello Acura - I have also posted under "Daily Living With the LVAD." Here is the link/with photo of what I used to carry the equipment. Best of luck:

Peter_Huttlinger's picture Peter_Huttlinger
Mon, 10/29/2012 - 1:15pm

Thomas your story is inspiring. I am a professional musician and have had heart issues my whole life. I have never looked at my glass as half empty. Even when I was just days from death I knew that if I died that I had lived a full life. Thanks to a great family when I was growing up and a great wife now I'm rocking hard. I have had my VAD for a year and a half and I'm back on the road touring and playing music and touching lives with my stories. I'm also doing some public speaking engagements as well where I incorporate music and stories. Life is good!

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Mon, 10/29/2012 - 3:31pm

Hi Peter! Thanks for your post. I'm happy to hear you are out and rocking the globe!! I went to one LVAD support group meeting where two people were whining about what small things they were unable to do. I couldn't take it. Life with an LVAD, in my opinion, is pretty normal, barely inconvenient. So, I never went to the group again. I was afraid I'd stand up and start yelling to "BUCK UP PEOPLE!" and everyone would hate me. So - safer to just not go. Now I have the floor whenever I speak and hopefully inspire people and sell my books. I have been invited to speak at the Mended Hearts national convention next year in San Diego, CA - so quite excited about that!

Jeremy's picture Jeremy
Wed, 03/27/2013 - 11:29am

Thomas, What was your three pronged program? I can not believe how much are stories are similiar. Hoping that maybe I can follow your lead and get this thing removed. Jeremy

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Wed, 03/27/2013 - 12:01pm

Hi William, the details of all what I did are in my book. Basically, it was switching to a nutrient-dense diet, balancing hormones (especially Armour Thyroid and testosterone), exercising and eliminating toxins (e.g. flouride, mercury and aluminum). I know - that's four, not three...
Would love to hear more about your situation. My web site is

Brenda_Wilber's picture Brenda_Wilber
Tue, 04/08/2014 - 7:27am

i just sent you an email to ... hope to hear a reply! ;)

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Tue, 04/08/2014 - 10:10am

Hi Everyone, just want you all to know that I have a new book out. It is a step-by-step guide to optimal health. It is available on my website
Brenda - I am not familiar with the e-mail address you posted. I have not received anything from you on my addresses. Sorry.

Nasir's picture Nasir
Tue, 07/29/2014 - 12:50pm

Thanks for posting this. I am a relative newbie and had my LVAD since November 2013 and same old story, in that I'm waiting for a transplant. But so glad to hear you were feeling what I am now. I feel good and go to the gym and in my heart(no pun intended) I feel I can get better and then I saw your story and thought wow! I don't want to go support group either, as its so negative and plus I want travel and they have given me so much grief. Admittedly its a hassle flying ( I want to go to the US, I live in the UK)but I want to go anyway and now reading your stuff makes me feel its worth at least trying to travel, and trying to get better and basically just giving what I want to do a go and what ever the end result it was better than doing nothing. Thanks and hopefully I'll get your result too (I'm buying the book too).

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Tue, 07/29/2014 - 2:21pm

Hi Nasir, I wish you all the best. I strongly recommend reading books by Dr. Mark Starr about hypothyroidism. I also recommend my own books. I believe that those of us who have idiopathic heart failure and are under age 50 have a good chance at reversing the problem. There is a holistic practitioner named Janet who commented on Dr. Starr's most recent book. She helped an 86 year old man get much of his heart function back. It takes effort and time of taking control of your own health. I wish you the best!!

Vicky's picture Vicky
Mon, 04/03/2017 - 4:53pm

Your story is so inspiring. I got my LVAD November 8 2016.

Pat300's picture Pat300
Thomas Martin
Tue, 05/23/2017 - 9:59pm

Does anyone know how Thomas Martin is doing? I bought his book. But, he seems to have dropped out of sight after 2014.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Mon, 12/18/2017 - 8:36am (Reply to #35)

Hi Pat,

Thank you for your concern. At some point I had trouble logging I into this website, grew frustrated and just gave up on it.

I am doing well, still reading and still exploring answers to heart failure. It is distressing that in my reading the medical community keeps talking about increases in heart failure patients but, what is not addressed, is why. My medical teams, both in California and now here in Texas, are not the least bit concerned with Why.

In general, I am doing well. I am still writing and blogging about health issues. I recently came out with a series of 10-Step E-Books on a variety of health issues (all available on my website). I am also writing other types of books now which should be released early next year.

Take care everyone. Stay optimistic and Healthy! Praise God every day.


Pat300's picture Pat300
Thomas Martin
Wed, 05/24/2017 - 6:51pm

Does anyone know how Thomas Martin is doing? I bought his book. But, he seems to have dropped out of sight after 2014.

TackroomFred's picture TackroomFred
Thu, 01/18/2018 - 6:48pm

Hi- Fairly new to ity new to. Healthy then 3 months later Heart Failure.
2months next week w/ L-Vad Heart ware. Im not ecited about Transplant. Steroid- rejectipon meds- etc.
What can a guy do to help recover heart & e-fraction, Advise? Im computer illiterate. IBut learning. I read some of your post, Just now figured out how to send you message. Thanks Fred -hope u get this

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
You can learn what I did to
Fri, 01/19/2018 - 9:13am

You can learn what I did to heal my heart in my book, "One Percent: My Journey Overcoming Heart Disease" available ONLY from my website:

TackroomFred's picture TackroomFred
Wed, 02/07/2018 - 2:47am

Hi- Sorry to bother u again, but a couple of questions.
Do all or most recipteants (LVAD) have problems. Infection- bacteria -GI. Bleeding . Constant hospitalization?
Your Removal of LVAD via open heart surgery?
I ordered 1% Solution
If you could answer above question.
I’m still trying to figure out how discussion works
Thanks Fred

link2brian's picture link2brian
LVAD Issues
Mon, 02/12/2018 - 1:50pm (Reply to #40)

I hope you won't mind my interjection myself into this discussion.

I have had my LVAD for about a year and a half and, if not for human error, it likely would have event free. I find that if I do not drink enough water (the LVAD doesn't work well if you aren't HIGHLY hydrated - suction alarms in my situation requiring that I drink a glass or two of water rather quickly or risk grogginess). I also learned that the drive line is not static ... it will move if you pull it. I accidently pulled mine while enjoying the "new" health that it provided and assembled a shed. I finished the shed (albeit a lot slower than I would have years ago), but, in doing so, pulled my drive line which led to a staff infection and the need for surgery. Thankfully, the surgery was uneventful and I am back to trying to behave myself while enjoying feeling a LOT better than I did before it was implanted.

My experience at Duke, which has a LARGE LVAD population, is that some complications (usually not specifically related to the LVAD be in error, such as my hydration issue or other medical issues such as weak lungs or kidneys) are common, but ones requiring hospitalization are infrequent. Mechanical issues are virtually non-existent among this population. (I had always worried about having to replace a faulty controller. But, I am told that occurs in less than 1% of all cases.) Regardless, I recommend the technology and applaud what it has done for me as, with a rather competitive transplant list, it is giving me both more and a better life.

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Direct Contact
Fri, 02/09/2018 - 4:17pm

Recently, I have received e-mails sent directly to my e-mail account seeking advice. I need to be clear about something: I'm happy to answer any question you may have, but I am NOT a support group. I will not pat your hand and say, "Oh, you poor dear." I'll give you my blunt opinion. So, if you are looking for something touchy/feeling, I am the wrong person to contact. Thank you.

Lgb0250's picture Lgb0250
Trauma to the driveline is
Mon, 02/19/2018 - 2:27pm

Trauma to the driveline is the number one cause of driveline infections. I always think of the movie Field of Dreams where the comment is made, if you build it, they will come! If you pull your driveline, infections will come! GI infections do happen but I wouldn’t say common. Lots of things happen because every body is different. The thing that absolutely is the most important advice I could ever give another LVAD patient is to “protect the driveline”. Cannot overemphasize this enough.

gail palmer's picture gail palmer
Wed, 08/01/2018 - 5:57pm

Attitude is everything what is the name of your book. My daughter is 35 years old and she has an lvad. She was diagnosed one week after giving birth with post partum myocardiopathy. She almost died in our local hospital in 2012. Thanks to a sharp RN who I knew personally at the hospital she got us transferred to SF who gave us the proper diagnosis which was congestive heart failure. Veronica recieved her lvad October 2012 and still lives with it.
Gail Palmer/Care giver/Mother

ThomasMartin's picture ThomasMartin
Wed, 08/01/2018 - 6:57pm (Reply to #44)

The name of my book is One Percent: My Journey Overcoming Heart Disease. It is available only on I also have a book that is a compilation of LVAD patient stories called A Hybrid Heart. Both are available on the website.

Thank you.


gail palmer's picture gail palmer
Wed, 08/01/2018 - 6:58pm (Reply to #45)

This is a hard life being a care giver for a loved one with an lvad. I have learned to be more spiritual since this happened to my daughter. I have seen Jesus make a way when there was clearly no way. My daughter was in a coma for 22 days after her lvad surgery. The physician's did not think she was going to make it. I could not believe what was happening. I was 57 years old and my daughter had just given birth to a healthy baby boy. I was a single mom and thought there is no way I am going to raise my new grandson, and seven year old granddaughter. My daughter was never married to the father of these children. I would leave the hospital not knowing if her newborn son was going to be without a mother. My granddaughter was so close to her mother and she was just getting ready to start the second grade. I was a nervous wreck. I had both children at my house and was trying to hold on to my job. I lived over 70 miles one way from the hospital and had to leave the children with relatives while going back and fourth. I did not know which way was up. The Lord got me through it. I lost 50 pounds during the seven months my daughter was in the hospital. Since the lvad implant my daughter had to learn to walk, talk, and eat again. When I brought my daughter home she had a feeding tube in due to not being able to chew and swallow properly. It has been a long journey. My daughter now walks on her own, is able to speak and eats normally. She has come a long way and still has more to go. Due to her brain injury she is not able to work or drive. I have to take care of the children who go back and fourth between my home and the father's home. My daughter has no social life. All of her friends and the father of the children have all forgotten her. It is so sad to watch. It is amazing how people disregard you once you become ill. My finances are in the toilet. My health I going down, but I know God will sustain me during this time. Keep your head up and give God the Glory He does see our struggle, and hear our prayer.

Gail Palmer/Care giver/Mother